For no discernable reason, a heart overflowing with anticipatory grief, out of nowhere. Very nearly physically painful. Not sure why.
I have theories.
Driving towards the gym through rush hour traffic at 4:30PM on the highway and it’s raining and the sky is overcast and the sunlight is blazing cold and bright and shimmering through the stratifications in the clouds and you can see the faded patches of rain on the horizon and I’m listening to whatever new pop song the six different FM radio stations I can easily get in the car can give me and then the rain is really coming down and – ugh. It’s so beautiful it hurts.
Anyway.