Showing up to be present with the people whose presence in your life you cherish and appreciate to no end when you aren’t at your best and you’re worried that anything you do or say or do could scare them off and make them think less of you is fucking terrifying. Like when you aren’t feeling well and you don’t trust yourself with the connections that matter to you, you wonder if even showing up to be present is a mistake because you can’t mess up a good thing when you aren’t there. Do you feel me.