Never turn your back to the classroom.

Re: I don’t like yelling at kids – I’ve decided not to. I’m not fucking doing that. I woke up this morning and remembered that I’m the only white person in a room of like thirty black kids. I’m a grown ass adult. They’re fucking eleven. I did not sign up for this bullshit. It feels like pouring salt all over a slug.

If they can’t sit still and be quiet because they are fucking nine years old, I won’t fucking ask them to do that. They can work with a partner and take up auditory space if they want.

They’re only like seven and I can already feel them starting to dislike me from all of the screaming and also my head hurts.

Not to brag or anything but one of my (basically newborn) kids pulled me aside yesterday and gave me a picture she’d drawn and told me I’m “one of her most favorite teachers ever” and says she hates it when I have to yell at people because I seem like a nice person

So – fuck. I’m not doing that anymore. We’re going to figure out another way to do this.

Christ.