Gave myself permission to feel deliriously happy and relieved about the election results, for a couple of days. Now I think I need to reign it in a little and focus.

Because I can’t just go to sleep now because Biden acknowledged the value of Black women and the existence of trans folk in his victory address. You don’t stop taking your medicine just as it starts to work, and there is still so much work to be done.

Soo, yeah… I am sitting here thinking about what “this fight isn’t over” actually means, because I honestly feel like that’s kind of fuzzy at the moment. For one thing, I did not allow myself to hope that Trump would lose, and now that he has, I am not sure what to do with myself. So much of leftist energy when I first entered those spaces was focused on *owning 45* and without that focal point, I am worried about what’s going to happen to us. To this momentum. It is so important to remember that things we’re fighting for are just as important as the things we are fighting against.

Considering what it is that I’m going to do, from here. Where to direct my energy, now that this has happened. I know I’m probably reinventing the wheel a little bit, but my brain just – handed me all of this, today. Like, “here you go.” And I thought it might help to get this out there before trying to focus on other things this morning.

Here are the thoughts that are percolating…

• What are the long term implications of a Biden presidency with a republican majority in the Senate and a 6-3 majority in the SCOTUS?
• How is that scenario likely to shape pandemic management, climate policy, lgbtq+ rights, the way systemic racism is addressed at a political level, etc.?
• How will this presidency affect polarization in politics in general, and the agendas of future republican candidates for president of the US?
• What lasting impact will Trump’s legacy have on the motherf*cking GOP?
• How will this presidency effect the progressive liberal/leftist voting base? How will this effect the grassroots leftist movement?
• How do I help flip the Senate blue, so that Biden’s presidency has an increased chance of being productive?
• How do I as a NYS resident help get people registered to vote for Georgia’s runoff election on January 5th? What complications potentially exist, there?
• How do I encourage people in GA to vote for Jon Ossoff?
• How could I have conversations with voters in Georgia without having to struggle with my anxiety around taking to strangers on the phone?
• Aside from directly talking to voters in Georgia, what can I do to help effect this outcome? Especially as someone who isn’t worth very much in terms of how many little green pieces of paper are rightfully mine.
• What can I do with my tiny social media platform that has like – the same number of followers as students in a high school classroom?
• I have finite resources to work with. Beyond money. For one thing, I’m deadass in a committed relationship with my GPA. How can I make the most impact on this outcome with the least amount of effort?
• What can I do to maintain a balance between my anxiety around this outcome and the rest of everything that’s going on in my life? How do I walk the line between awareness and obsession, between productivity and pouring too much of myself into this?
• What can I do to make things better closer to home?

Speaking as a tutor, I think it’s fucking amazing how the act of articulating a vague query as an explicit question can help a mind to think.